The dreaded weekend finally arrived.
The weekend I had to move out of my dream home has come and gone and it doesn't feel lovely.
As excited as I am to come live at the cottage, I can't help but feel so sad and hopeless.
It truly is over. We're over...
Forever.
The move was easy and not bad at all, the unpacking is less desirable.
Usually I love this part of moving, but this time it feels pointless when it's just me.
I miss it so much.
Everything.
The house, him, my neighbors, my life.
I had everything I ever dreamed of, and now it's gone.
Sometimes life is so very hard.
My life has been hard before, but never like this.
This is a pain I have never felt before, heartbreak is a terrible feeling.
I don't wish it on anyone.
Thank god for Chuck Norris.
My poor puppy has been smothered with hugs and sobs lately. LOL
My morning view does help a little.
It is spectacular. :)
I will have an excellent summer I know it, it's just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now.
So, here is a list of happy things I keep reminding myself about:
~ I found my shark fin water wings yesterday so now I am very excited for swimming in the river :)
~ I am going to be doing the market again this year and I think I'm gonna start selling maxi dresses and cake pops!
~ I think my friend is going to come spend the cottage week I'd purchased for his son with me in July.
~ I have had lots of job offers and work is good!
~ I am going to make all my friends maxi dresses once I have a desk to put my sewing machine on.
~ I have the best view ever.
~ I can now put Miracle Whip in everything I eat (he hated it!!! LOL)
~ I got my own BBQ and I'm gonna barbeque up a storm!!!
~ I am going home for two weeks to see my 2 nephews! (highlight of the summer)
~ #5 has a trampoline!!!
~ I'm gonna plant a small veggie garden to save money this year.
**Sorry this post is so sad...I have read it a couple times now and still don't know if I should post it. I just want to keep my blog honest and real, I'm not always happy go lucky and right now my life is in shambles. I'm trying my best to keep it together, and considering the circumstances, I think I am doing a fairly good job. Most of my friends say they would have slit his tires, keyed his car, put a nasty ad in the classifieds or stuff much much worse. The fact that I still haven't enforced payback is mind boggling to most of my friends, but also a true sign of who I am (I think). He can continue to hurt me as much as he wants, but I refuse to be like him and hurt him. I don't want him to feel like I do.
It's not fun.
Please know that I am not a depressed, lonely, pathetic single lady now.
I am fine, everything will be ok...
It's just scary to be alone again.
Cheers,
Messy
I miss it so much.
Everything.
The house, him, my neighbors, my life.
I had everything I ever dreamed of, and now it's gone.
Sometimes life is so very hard.
My life has been hard before, but never like this.
This is a pain I have never felt before, heartbreak is a terrible feeling.
I don't wish it on anyone.
Thank god for Chuck Norris.
My poor puppy has been smothered with hugs and sobs lately. LOL
My morning view does help a little.
It is spectacular. :)
I will have an excellent summer I know it, it's just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now.
So, here is a list of happy things I keep reminding myself about:
~ I found my shark fin water wings yesterday so now I am very excited for swimming in the river :)
~ I am going to be doing the market again this year and I think I'm gonna start selling maxi dresses and cake pops!
~ I think my friend is going to come spend the cottage week I'd purchased for his son with me in July.
~ I have had lots of job offers and work is good!
~ I am going to make all my friends maxi dresses once I have a desk to put my sewing machine on.
~ I have the best view ever.
~ I can now put Miracle Whip in everything I eat (he hated it!!! LOL)
~ I got my own BBQ and I'm gonna barbeque up a storm!!!
~ I am going home for two weeks to see my 2 nephews! (highlight of the summer)
~ #5 has a trampoline!!!
~ I'm gonna plant a small veggie garden to save money this year.
**Sorry this post is so sad...I have read it a couple times now and still don't know if I should post it. I just want to keep my blog honest and real, I'm not always happy go lucky and right now my life is in shambles. I'm trying my best to keep it together, and considering the circumstances, I think I am doing a fairly good job. Most of my friends say they would have slit his tires, keyed his car, put a nasty ad in the classifieds or stuff much much worse. The fact that I still haven't enforced payback is mind boggling to most of my friends, but also a true sign of who I am (I think). He can continue to hurt me as much as he wants, but I refuse to be like him and hurt him. I don't want him to feel like I do.
It's not fun.
Please know that I am not a depressed, lonely, pathetic single lady now.
I am fine, everything will be ok...
It's just scary to be alone again.
Cheers,
Messy











































